February 2012
3 posts
the number 3
seriously..
11/29/2012 if u add that= 2052 WHICH IS A FREAKING DIVIDEND OF 3 -________- awesome..
and if u just add 1+1+2+9+2+0+1+2= 18 -_____-… another dividend of 3
why am i always surrounded by 3’s -_____-
the letter
the hardest thing i had to do. but it had to be done . one step further away from my past.
the start of a new ME
as i start a new journey on my own i have noticed how much i have been restricting myself while i was in a relationship.
i feel more focused in school, more motivated to do better things and be a better me.
i finally registered for my very first half marathon in september. and well i have been training here and there when i can. and i honestly think that this is a fresh start of what i can be...
January 2012
2 posts
the stranger
its been about 2 months now. and well it has been a rollercoaster of emotions.
lets start from the beginning. when i finally came back to treehouse chris and jaimie both had disturbing news to tell me. at the time i just wanted to hear about anything and everything about him. even though they didnt feel like i was ready to hear it i insisted them to tell me. that day i found out that he has...
December 2011
4 posts
the reminiscing
these past couple of days especially christmas i have been a bit emo. even though im slowly moving on and keeping busy.. i cnt help but think about him and wonder how he is taking things.
christmas eve i was pretty good and my none of my family asked for his whereabouts. however when it came time to do secret santa.. thats when it sunk in again. no one still mentioned him or anything. but i was...
the trance
trying to get over greg has somewhat been easy for me this past week. our memories as a couple for two years have honestly been drifting away. i cant remember the good or the bad times anymore. i only remember what he has done to me.
this feeling that im having seems that i was in a trance or a dream for the past two years. none of it feels real anymore. what we had was just a spell put upon us....
the aftermath
this past weekend was a mess. i was a mess.
friday:
i went out with the cousins for noels bday. and well all they did was keep asking about greg.. and i just couldnt tell them.. i couldnt.. i wasnt ready!. so i let it be and played it off. bad decesion. i went crazy and couldnt stop thinking about him -______-.. cried myself to sleep…
Saturday:
worked at mickies.. which meant i was by...
the breakup x2
its over. i cnt believe it.. he has broken up with me twice within less than a month. it might have been my fault or his. but i know for sure i dont deserve this. the main reason why he broke up with me and why we get into alot of fights is because of his family. yea his family. i hate his parents. and well they hate me too. i guess i just couldnt get it in my head that his parents will NEVER...
July 2011
2 posts
the weight
ever since i was young and finally got my period. i was irregular. i would tell my private doctor and she wud always suggest birth control pills. but since i was soo young back then i always said no and never thought of it as a big deal .
however, now that i am currently 23 and sexuallly active with my bf. this has come up several times and has worried me.
i havent had my period. which i cud...
the understanding parents
these past few months i have been stressing on school like no other.
Basically, i had taken ochm 315 3 times and have failed twice and the 3rd time passed with a D+. BUT to take and go forward to 316 u need a C- or better.. well obivoulsy i did not meet the prerequisite. which sucks balls because i worked my ass off for that class and i knew if i didnt pass the class i knew i would be in a...
June 2011
1 post
the money... the stress
honestly. my paychecks that i get every 2 weeks will be gone within days.. WHY??.. i have no idea!!.. bills. disneyland passes. eating. going out.gas. buying shit that i dont need. hospital visits. and much more..
i thought i would be able to save some money but some how i end up broke. without saving a dime from my paycheck.. i just dont get it. its stressing me out. i got 170 bucks this past...
May 2011
2 posts
the new NARNIA :)
so me and katie have recently found our new getaway from everything.. first off we share the masterbedroom of a two story house. and have a huge window that leads to the rooftop of our house.
well last week we were pissed and spiteful to our other roomates. (long story and not the point) we decided to be rebels and break open our screen window and chill on the top of our roof. and let me tell u...
the number 3
so ive been wanting to write this in awhile.
my favorite number is 3 and i have been surrounded by it all my life. let me show you:
- born on the 12th= 1+2=3
- have only 3 grandparents. i have never meet my dads dad.
- i live under the roof of 6 ppl. my immediate fam plus my aunt. which is a multiple of 3
- i am out of 3 kids but have 3 siblings ( i have a half sis i barely know)
- i...
March 2011
3 posts
The ashes
Today is Ash wednesday and after a long period of time when i have not been attending mass i finally went today. it felt great going to mass today. it was very enlightening and really made me rethink about my life
the mass was intended for children. so the homily was very simple and to the point. he talked about the ashes that were given to us today and place on our heads. i never knew that the...
the fasting
so today is fat tuesday/ mardi gras.. which means tomorrow is ash wednesday and the start of the lental season. and well really i have not been that great of a person as i said i would be for my new years resolution. so here i go again tryin to be that better healtier person i crave to be
the things that i would like to give up and try to make myself a better person during this lent season and...
the borrowing
ok honestly this has beeen bothering me since well i was young.. and well i just never really care about it and i usually brush it off but oohhh this time i am PISSED
so i have the tendency to lend things to my friends. even when i was young i would lend all my cool new jewlery to my neighbor friends.. and well did i ever get them back.. NO! .. never.. but i was a child then and i didnt want to...
February 2011
1 post
the jokes and the teasing
so recently i have watched imagine me and you. and well quick summary of it
a couple are newly weds the husband is without a doubt such a sweetheart and loves his wife dearly. however the wife is infatuated by another woman and well cheats on her husband but knows that she doesnt want to hurt him and tells the other woman things cant work out. throughout this time during the cheating HE thought...
January 2011
3 posts
the start of my 23rd
i was my birthday lastt wednesday. and lets just say last year for my 22nd was thee worst. so this year i wouldnt think it could be as bad.. but i fooled myself
wednesday :
day of was nice. went to disneyland and got my tastea. theen the regular happy hour at yardhouse.. very simple. got home and smoked out. but overall good day of
thrusday:
had school which was nice. then smoked out...
the new year 2011
so finally its a new year. lets just say 2010 from the start was a bad year for me and i just wanted it done and over with. so now hello 2011.
i really hope this year starts better than last year. im not expecting so much cuz thats what i did last time. but u cant blame me.. all i want is the best. but of course im never the lucky gal -___-.. maybe its because i have done so many bad things that...
December 2010
8 posts
the sex fantasy
okay to be honest i always fantasized about having hot ass smoky sex in a well sized car.
i have a honda element. and well if u have no idea what that looks like it the best car to have sex in. i mean the back seats fold down into a bed. or if u want to be more intimate and not in a rush u cud put the chairs up which covers up the windows and make things more private. ME well i just like the...
the kickout
long and dramatic story short. gregg got kicked out .. and well now livin and staying at my house. it really didnt hit me till now.
this morning i went out for breakfast with steen and mark. and well told her the story and well it justt hit me how real everything was. i think what sucks is that its the holidays and well he wont be around. and jus yesterday my dad was asking how greg was. asking...
the year and a half
so today was our year and a half and to be honest i was really sad that we didnt do nething. we didnt do nething on our 1 year and i thought this would make up for it but it didnt.
i mean i get it he’s going through alot but something corny and cute or even something simple would have been nice. i just feel its just not as important anymore as it was before :(.. i miss that cornyness and...
the worst thing to happen yet
greg just got kicked out of the house and i watched the whole thing happen :(… really his parents are by far the worst ppl i have met yet
baby u stick through this im here, i love u, and i will support as much as i can. <3
the other parents
to be honest.. i’ve had enough. im tired of greg’s parents. saying things, promising things and all of the above. i serioulsy have supported greg from the start. i even sided with his parents at times. but now.. oh man nooowww its done. they can go fuck themselves. his dad of course at first wanted him to stop going out basically stop having a social life.. first clue basically saying...
November 2010
2 posts
October 2010
6 posts
the NY wedding
i have been super busy with midterms and what not and i havent wrote my exprience of my first NY wedding as a bridesmaid :)
THRUSDAY Oct 14th:
i arrived at JFK airport around 530 in the morning. the air and atmospher was so beautiful. it took me and my parents about a good 2 hours from the airport to our hotel because we took the train and subway then walked the rest. but seriously i felt like a...
greggasaurus asked: why do u make me smile? :D
the sweet 16
so yesterday was my 16 months with my boo. and let me say it was perfect if i cud repeat that day over again i would in a heart beat. it started off with class but that was breezy.. and the weather was perfect.. total fall weather with a little bit of drizzle and brisk air.. and of course JACKETS! :P.. anyways greg was already waiting at my house and right when he got out of his car he was holding...
the "eventually" song →
Verse 1: Sometimes this world can be cold When you’re on your own it’s a struggle everyday Just to be a woman with dignity So we’ve got to find a way so all the world can see That we deserve equality And one day it can be if there’s faith Inside yourself and me Chorus: We can conquer almost anything Show the world we can be anything So the hopes and dreams of...
the kappa dinner
tonight was the first night being a pledgee for kappa. we had our dinner. at first i think i was stressed and confused.. because i had no means of dressing up and no enthusiasm to go to the dinner. i guess i was scared and still in shock that i was going through with it. BUT i knw i WANT it. i just want to skip all the crazy shit thats gna happen in between. cuz goddamn im scared shitless. anyways...
The first entry from him →
this guy.. the love of my life.. totally surprise me.. and yes i cried my eyes out :) read on and click the title
greggasaurus:
so…where do i begin? you could say everything started june 6th of last year but ill just fast forward a bit. I’ve been with my girl for almost a year and a half now. seriously thats a record. ive never felt so in love with a girl all my life. like she means...
September 2010
7 posts
The stress... Already
I knw I said I didn’t want to be negative nemore.. But today pretty much sucks. I’m behind in my classes. And well I’m a 5th year.. When will I finally learn to priotize and really be serious to study n graduate. I still cnt imagine myself graduating.. Or growing up. This is scaring me. I see no future and I feel like I’m gna be stuck in school forever.. I really want to...
the cheessyyness
today my bf greg came up to see me and spend time with me all day since i didnt really have class today :).. and let me tell u it was soo great..
first went to go shopping at forever. and bought FINALLY a mickey mouse sweater and he FINALLY bought his shirt that he has been looking for.. so good day for shopping today :P.. then decided to eat at BDUBS.. and yes it was delicious.. like seriously....
the vegas trip :D
oh man what can i say about vegas.. except HOW GREAT and awsome it was.. seriously best vegas trip yet.. even though there was some downs the ups just made it even better.
friday:
i was hungover then class then picked up greg then the intervieww (which btw went well) :). then off to vegas we went!. and through a bit of traffic and 4 and a half hours we finally made it to vegas just in time to...
the bf
seriously this past weekend was my treat to him for his birthday since we will be in vegas on his actual birthday. and it felt soo right.. friday surprised him with 90 bucks to disney and he just went to the optemetrist so i cud order my glasses. then we ate out for lunch for his birthday.. el pollo inca!.. and that food was bomb. lol theen well i went out to RAGE.. which was tons of fun. and well...
the sex
so honestly me and my bf after 15 months we still have the hots for each other. and seriously i love everything about it. compared to my gfs kristine and trisha man am i lucky?.. or more like always horny!. lol. me and greg do it almost everytime we see each other. or we at least have a make-out session. really though its not that the ssex is awsome.. which seriously it is!. but its more like he...
August 2010
1 post
May 2010
2 posts
the unfortunate party
Last night was one of the worst nights that i could remember. im so digusted about myself till now and i dont think i could ever forgive myself for what i have done.
Last night was allister’s bday party. it was fun no doubt to see ALL my close friends under the same roof. but then again it was a bad idea. Allister like always couldn’t handle his liquor and of course i had to take...
the many different questions
everything is happening to fast. i dnt know how to feel about anything anymore. greg’s parents are done and over greg they gave up on him and are ready to kick them out by summer. and how am i suppose to feel about this?.. i have NO IDEA. im so conflicted. im so scared im emotional im restricted but im SUPPOSE to be the STRONGER one. instead im the weaker one. even though greg is going...
March 2010
1 post
the trust
last night i found out that greg has been smoking out straight for the past 3 weeks.
shocked. i didnt know how to take it. why is it that he never tells me anything?. how could i understand him if he cant tell me stuff. this isnt the first time he has done this before. i mean i understand that there are things he keeps from me but it hurts that he has to hide things from me. i know that i dont....
February 2010
9 posts
the stupid .
i dont know whats wrong with me right now. and i hate it. ya im on it but i feel like shit. greg wanted took me out to go study at barnes n noble. but i dont know i ust wasnt feeling it. like really. i was irritated i guess u can say. but why? when u was acting so sweet. he bought me a cupcake. and then a cookie? .. what was wrond with me. i see the couple next to me being all cute. and i was like...
to be honest im bitter. seeing her i just cant pretend. last night sucked now i dont know what to do. greg dont want to talk to me. i dont want to talk to katie. my life is screwed. great way to start off lent. i hate this. i dont want to do shit again. cuz thats my thing now. just stay in bed and not do crap. but whatever. guess time to do my paper